๐ง๐ต๐ฒ ๐ ๐ฎ๐๐๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐๐บ๐ฎ๐ป ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐: ๐๐บ๐ฏ๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ป, ๐ฆ๐๐ณ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ธ๐ป๐ฒ๐๐
I was having dinner last night with a small group of friends at a fancy 5 star restaurant overlooking the Ayung river.
They asked me about my time in Canada this past summer, after reading my raw intimate sharingโs during this time in which I posted about the extremely painful and tumultuous experience visiting a mental health hospital; that sparked this fire within for the reclamation of our true humanity to be reinstated on this Earth.
As I sat in this beautifully decorated restaurant with candles and torches lit, with the most scenic view of the jungle and flowing river below, I was washed from within with a tremendous gratitude.
A deep humbleness was felt. A humbleness for the opportunity to be where I was in that moment.
I realized how grateful I was to be in such a beautiful classy restaurant in Bali with friends, and then all the memories of this past summer came flooding back to meโฆ
Memories of seeing atrocious behaviour by hospital management, acts of abuse, dehumanizing methods used in hospitals within the mental health ward, the condescending way doctors speak to patients and patients families, the absolute lack of integrity and responsibility within health care professionals and the overall cold heartless environment that my family member was held in came flooding back into my consciousness.
I was reminded of the lack of humanity I witnessed and experienced excruciatingly strong during this summer in Canada, and how it broke my heart open even wider then before and forcefully opened my eyes to the current state of consciousness on this Earth, and the brutality that is existing within many spectrums of our society.
In this moment, in this gorgeous setting of beauty, I was reminded of the darkness and pain on this Earth right now.
I connected back to all the suffering I witnessed during this time in Canada, and all the people I could feel in this moment that are experiencing disconnection, isolation, loneliness, numbness, deep pain, sadness and depression in this moment of time around the world. Both people I know, and people I donโt know.
I felt it all in my heart simultaneously, while in this beautiful atmosphere having dinner in paradise in Bali.
Sometimes in these moments of beauty, and bliss, itโs easy to forget the simultaneous realities that are coexisting around the planet.
Itโs easy to tune out the worldโs suffering and pain, and isolate ourselves in a bubble of bliss and perfection.
What I have come to realize is that all realities exist, and we can tune into different realities at any moment.
My personal practice that has emerged from my own direct experience this summer, is to keep my heart and full being open to everything that is happening and existing in the world.
To not run towards beauty and push away the darkness and ugliness, but to embrace all spectrums of life, and keep my self open to the full spectrum of living and existence in every moment, wherever I am.
Whether in a 5 star restaurant in Bali, or visiting a mental health ward of a hospital.
๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ณ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด, ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต, ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ข๐ถ๐ต๐บ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ช๐ด๐ด.
โจ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต, ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฅ๐ข๐ณ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด, ๐ฑ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ถ๐ง๐ง๐ฆ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ.
To embrace it all, full spectrum, is to live in genuine spiritual maturity on this Earth.
Itโs to be wholesomeโrooted in the truth of the diversity of life.
To not deny or push away anything, but to gently embrace and hold it all within our tender and powerful human hearts.
This is the power of the human heartโthe capacity to hold all of Life simultaneously and all its perceived contrasts and polarities in the core centre of truth, openness and congruency.
I choose to live with eyes wide open.
I choose to see everything.
I choose to feel everything.
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I refuse to close my heart to what is unbearable and will allow life to be the crucible that cracks the radiance of the sunlight within my heart to be showered out in the world.
I will not push any emotions awayโwhether those that feel good, or donโt feel good. I will feel them all, and let them flow through me like a river.
I will allow the Wholeness of life to baptize me in the colours and fire of life.
And I will keep my entire heart and being open to the blessing of life in every moment.
โจโจI will remember to see the beauty and radiance in the darkness, and to see the ugliness and shadows in the light.
...Less then 1 more month until my book is published....๐น
With a strong open heart, eyes wide open:
Nicole