The Mental Health System is a Wasteland of the Patriarchy Era

The current mental health system is a wasteland of the patriarchy era.

I found out this past week that my family member was finally released from the hospital, after exactly 3 months of being within the hospital system—and what an absolute nightmare it was.

I don’t think I will ever be able to adequately express this horrendous experience, yet I try my best to convey it with words in it’s fullest truth and actuality.

Words cannot describe how painful it was to witness this process, and to have one’s eyes awakened forcefully and brutally to the atrocities, archaic methods and absolute complete lack of understanding that exists within the current mental health system.

It really is like medieval times we are living in within certain structures of society.

During these months, of spending almost every day visiting a mental health hospital I left almost every time with tears of despair in my eyes.

Every time I entered the hospital my legs would become weak, and I felt like I was going to faint. The blood would drain out of my body slowly, and I felt the energetic field of suppression, patriarchal domination, and control.

I felt weak, just by stepping foot into the hospital—which is supposed to be a place of healing and recovery. Imagine what it does to one’s body, mind, psyche, heart and soul by having to stay in such a place for an extended time!

In all of my travels around the world to over 60+ countries, and having lived abroad in North America, Europe and Asia—I have never experienced such a low vibrational, dark, dense and completely hopeless environment than the mental health unit within the hospitals in Canada. It is a disgrace on our humanity.

It was the most depressing and bleak environment I have ever encountered. Sitting in the lounge area, with many of the people being detained against their will, and witnessing how they were being treated was like a brutal slap of reality in my face. The lowest of the low.

The questions that arised within me: Can this really be a place of healing and recovery? Is it possible that this energetic field of hopelessness, pain and depression could be even worse? How is it possible that humans that are nurses and doctors can treat and talk to other humans going through deep processes the way they do? Where is their humanity? What has happened to this world?

I can with full truthfulness say that I, as a highly energetic sensitive being, with strong subtle perceptions—would not be able to live for more then 1 day in such an environment. I would go crazy.

Rooms with fluorescent lights and no windows, food that contains absolutely no life force energy and is dead, a space with no silence and constant loud announcements on the PA, not being able to go outside and breathe fresh air, having no privacy, and being forced to be governed by the dictatorial authority of psychiatrists and doctors (although well intentioned, severely lacking awareness, compassion and empathy) is hell in it’s purest form.

And my family member, who is also a sensitive being—lived this hell for the past 3 months—a true warrior of light.

If you can survive and live in the most horrific of conditions of what our society has created, and come out with your light still intact and shining—these people deserve a medal of honour for their resilience, courage, perseverance and capacity to live the unbearable and inhumane.

Yet sadly, many don’t come out of this hospital system in good shape. It’s a place that largely perpetrates sickness, as the system itself is severely SICK.

Not only within hospitals, but the world at large. So many humans are experiencing horrific conditions right now in the world.

Soul leadership is a necessary and essential part of creating change and transformation on this Earth.

Divine Feminine Soul Leadership requires us to step into our power as heart and soul centred leaders, and lead from the revolution of our heart. To burn away our complacency, conditionings, fears, inhibitions and mental constructs—everything that binds us—to unleash and free the power of our souls on this Earth.

This experience in these months solidified the warrior of light within me. Even though I may appear to be at times a shining, angelic, graceful, light, fairy essence being—make no mistake—this is one expression and layer of my being, yet at the heart of who I am, is a powerful warrior of light, unwaveringly devoted to love, and rooted in unshakable truth.

There is a ruthless grenade of a divine protectress within me, that stands emblazoned with a sword of light in hand, wings of golden Divine light set on fire, burning in the fires of God—to bring about Divine Justice on this Earth and to abolish darkness (ignorance), and liberate souls back into their true nature of their God essence.

Everything that I stand for, embody and share—was tested like smouldering iron—through this experience that showed me the exact polarity of what I am. The complete opposite spectrum to my being and incarnation.

Everything that comes to us forges us into the beings that we are meant to be on this Earth. Never think that anything is random or accident.

Everything is divinely orchestrated in divine perfection, and as much as our human self may not be able to perceive the greater all encompassing picture in the totality of life—we must have the humility to bow our heads to life and trust the greater symphony.

We must use our most heart breaking, crucifying, and horrific experiences as alchemical gold in the fire of truth, to strengthen us instead of weaken us.

We are on this Earth to be powerful, heart centred, illuminated beings of light—to govern the dawn of the Golden Age that is upon us….and when beckoning the golden age onto this Earth, all of the final structures of domination, control, and patriarchal expressions will come up for one last battle of existence—and sometimes we will have very personal experiences within these structures.

What I can say today, that I wouldn’t have been able to say months ago is that I am grateful for this experience that life made me face. I am grateful for all the pain, gut wrenching and heart breaking turmoil that exploded like dynamite within me.

I am grateful for all the dying that happened internally, so that more of my True Nature could take up providence within. For the nonessential to be purified into the essential.

Like a grenade that goes off, it deepened my being, it opened my eyes to the world—and lit the fire within to burn ever stronger then ever before, with a heart that's been broken open even more by fierce grace.

I wish us all deep resilience and the courage to meet life authentically and powerfully.

Nicole ❤️

♦️A Lack of Humanity on this Earth at this Time—The Need for True Humans♦️

After 2 months of experiencing the depths of pain, sorrow and hell that came along with the disturbing experience in Canada of my family member, I have been left completely cracked open to life and it's many facets.

I feel sickened by the state of the world as it is right now.

I see what a barbaric world we are living in, and just how much of the dark ages we are still in. I almost can't believe what is currently happening to humans within the institutions that are in place.

Everyday crimes against humanity are taking place - because we have lost our humanity and what it really means to be human. And it's been like this for too long - which is why a change is needed now more then ever.

This is why many of us are currently here on this Earth, at this pivotal time, to implement changes and foster a new world in which we are proud to live in.

After going through the shocking experience I have already wrote about on June 27th (if you haven't read it, scroll down on my timeline) so many other things have happened since this intimate and raw sharing.

Things got even worse, and everyday for these past 2 months that I was visiting the Mental Health unit of this hospital I left with tears in my eyes, and cried.

I've felt powerless, and helpless at the hands of these deeply rooted and solid institiutions of power and authority, that are operating in the model of 'power over'. These institutions were built for the purpose of making humans feel powerless actually.

It is beyond disgusting what is taking place within the walls of these public institutions everyday (ie schools, hospitals etc), and who created these institutions that are devoid of true humanistic qualities?

▷ Why do we live in a world lacking humanistic values, if we are all human?

▷ When did we loose our humanity?

▷ When did we become robotic and like machines?

▷ How is it possible that we have strayed so far from the dignity, nobility and pride of being a true human?

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We are living in a world of programming, of programmed people, living and doing what society has taught them to do.

Many people don't even question themselves and what I observed specifically while in the hospital was that the majority of nurses, doctors and hospital management are simply cogs in the machine - doing a function, for the sake of receiving money, in order to live and survive.

They are not doing their true authentic livelihood. Many have no idea what their soul purpose is, and are completely disconnected.

As someone that supports and whose work is to help people reconnect to their true soul purpose and authentic calling, it made me sad to see how so many 'do' things everyday that are not at all rooted in their authentic being and soul. It's painful to witness this. A severe disconnection and numbness is pervading the planet.

Mature authentic livelihood, and true soul work is largely absent in this world, and is the medicine of our times...

Many are simply functioning like machines, hence, the complete devoid and lack of human qualities such as: compassion, love, courage, empathy, caring, receptivity, sensitivity, gentleness, intuition, and heart centred wisdom.

Many associate these qualities of the heart with the Divine Feminine, and this has been my Divine Mission and Calling the past 4 years. This was my sacred purpose that Life bestowed and summoned me to invoke and activate within women, and the world.

Hence, hundreds of workshops, circles, retreats and classes around the world I did like a blazing fire - with hundreds of women around the world that reclaimed a greater wholeness within themselves through this work.

This was also why my signature online global 3 month "Divine Feminine Soul Leadership Program" I do with women around the world is so powerful and life changing, and I feel the next round of this program in the fall is going to be the most powerful yet, after everything I have experienced in these months of embodied soul leadership, self mastery and sacred activism rooted in the heart of the Power of the Feminine.

I see now the necessity for the Divine Feminine qualities to be lived, embodied and reenacted within the world now more then ever (within men and women), especially after these 2 months of dropping into hell and the current systems in place.

Embodying 'feminine' qualities of the heart is not some wishy washy new age fade of being a Goddess.

It's simply a very practical and relevant aspect of being human, that has been completely forgotten by the majority of humanity for quite some time. Without the integration of the feminine within our systems, we are mechanical, cold, heartless, and weak people - that do not know the true source of our power - which comes from the heart!

As long as humanity has forgotten the qualities of the Divine Feminine and the heart, they will remain weak - by merely believing and thinking (imprisoned in the mind), while completely being cut off from their true source of power - which originates in the heart.

When humans reconnect to the heart and the 'feminine' qualities of life, they can no longer be controlled and programmed as robotic zombies playing the roles of cogs in the machine of society.

That is why it is so dangerous and powerful at the same time for us all to reconnect to our hearts, and remember the basic remembrance of what it truly means to be a human being on this Earth. To live with courage, dignity, honor and love.

To reclaim our humanity, and refuse to live as less then what we were born to be. True humans are awake in the heart - we are not machines - we are powerful human beings that are sourced from the indestructible nature and powerhouse of the heart.

True humans are wholesome beings within a fragmented world; all spectrums of our body, mind, heart and soul intact and awakened. Much less rare, then common - and so deeply needed.

...these are some of the questions, contemplation and stirrings of my soul today that I felt inspired to share with you all. If this post has resonated with you, I invite you to share, and to remind others of the power of our true humanity - and the real purpose of the Divine Feminine on this Earth.

Breathing into the Unbearable...

The last few weeks have been turbulent, riding the waves of the intensity and severity of life. Sometimes life comes in and shocks you. It throws you to your feet, and presents you with something that is unbearable and devastating—in order to annihilate you, and birth you into a newly embodied version of yourself.

I’ve taken a 3 week absence from Facebook, in order to fully be present with a traumatic event that life has presented to me and my family. My family member who is currently in the hospital in the mental health unit, was attacked and assaulted by 3 security guards one night.

The hospital did not call my family and let us know of the incident, and instead I was the one to find my family member covered in blood, unable to speak, bruised and a smashed in eye the next morning when I visited the hospital. The hospital didn’t even clean my family member up, and instead injected this person with 3 needles to be knocked out. Brutality.

On this morning I had to call 911, while being in a Canadian hospital—isn’t that absurd? The police came. It was like being in a nightmare, a horrific event that has shaken the depths of my being—and destroyed me.

When someone who is already extremely vulnerable; emotionally and psychologically fragile, who is in the hospital for mental health is attacked and beaten by security guards that are employed by the hospital—does it get any worse then this? To create even more trauma on top of trauma. This is the world we are living in. This is the state of humanity at this time on Earth.

Institutional Abuse. Human Right Violation. A sickening expression of a dysfunctional unhealthy society. Abuse of Power.

These last weeks I’ve felt Enraged. Sick. Shocked. Sad. Tender. Vulnerable. Disappointed of the world we are currently living in, and spiralling in an ocean of emotions that have been washing through me.

Sometimes I truly feel that we are living in the dark ages right now on this Earth. The future that I feel, and am rooted in, is one of an enlightened civilization. Where we are right now, is the completion of a very dark period in humanities evolution.

I really don’t even have much to say, considering that every piece of me has been annihilated through this event. The last weeks I have been dealing with hospital management, police and lawyers. What another world I have been catapulted into.

This has been a nightmarish experience—and has been the most painful, severe, disturbing, shocking and horrifying life event to date. It’s almost like something I would read about in the news, or watch on TV.

And guess what? This is happening to thousands of people around the world everyday. Many of these horrific events of institutional abuse and violence remain clocked in silence by those suppressed, vulnerable and without a real voice in society.

Often in the mental health arena, it’s easier to label someone as crazy, stripping them of their human dignity then to actually treat them with the respect, dignity and compassion they deserve.

This incident has showed me the failure of our systems to truly care and help those that its meant to serve, and the importance of justice to be honoured. It is a human right violation for those in positions of power to abuse their power and inflict violence on those under their authority.

Sometimes, we don’t fully feel the depths of insanity on this Earth until it touches us in a very intimate way. And this experience for me has been the most intimate of the intimate—because even though it didn’t directly happy to my body, heart and soul—I have felt the impact of this severely within myself, as our family is an extension of ourselves. As are we all.

I ended up going on a personal retreat to New York for a couple days, to the St. Francis Peace Centre where the sisters of St. Francis and Nuns reside. I walked the labyrinth on their retreat property, walked in the forest, and spent time on the Niagara River on the border to Canada. While in the library one day, sitting there in silence, my attention was directed to a book in the shelf with the title “All is Grace”. It spoke to me.

~ Can we find the grace in life events that appear to be horrific and the darkest of the dark?

~ Can we find the blessing within the perfection of life?

~ Can we accept the Divine Will, even when it looks very different then our personal will?

~ How deeply can we trust the higher intelligence of life?

~ How can we be a champion of truth, and bring awareness and light to the violence on this Earth?

~ How may we serve as peaceful Warriors of the light actively in society, as opposed to living a dichotomy of our spirituality being separate from what we invoke, inseminate and infuse in the world?

What I do know, is that this experience initiates me into a greater depth of awakened soul leadership, unparalleled compassion for those experiencing suffering in the world under the hands of those in power and authority, greater love, deeper trust and even more gentleness and sensitivity to every living soul I encounter.

It awakens the warrior within me, to speak up for those who don’t have voices and are being held within the walls of these institutions! To speak up for those who experience brutality, violence, abuse and denigration! To speak up for those who don’t have the freedom to speak!

I feel this experience has been a strong catalyst for grounding all this light and my divinity into the most darkest and messy nature of our human existence. Bringing the light into human life in a very grounded and practical way, with people in society that I would normally not be in relation with. The warrior of truth within me in service to love standing up for what matters, and reminding them of the qualities of human dignity, nobility, and compassion.

My prayer today is that we may live in a world that shines with the truth of Who We Are. A world where we no longer live in ignorance of our true nature, and operate in alignment with the cornerstone of love of our very being. A world where we no longer need to talk about spirituality, because we are all living the essence of truth. A world where we have reclaimed what it truly means to be human, which is living with the wisdom and intelligence of our heart on the mantle of our divinity. We cannot harm another human when we are healthy. We cannot continue to contribute to the madness on this Earth when we have peace within ourselves. May the Divinity of Justice and Compassion be resurrected for All, and may the sins of ignorance be forgiven in the Heart of the One for all of Eternity. And so it. Amen. ❤️🙏

A Sharing on Mental Health, Addictions, Anxiety and Depression

I’ve been quiet here on Facebook the last week, experiencing a lot of pain and struggling with coming to terms with a situation in my life. Pain within my family, that has to do with mental health issues and witnessing those closest to me suffering.

A member of my family is right now in the hospital, and is struggling with a mental health component. This month is Mental Health Awareness month and I keep being pushed by life to write and speak about my pain and struggle with family that has struggled with mental health.

There is a stigma in society around mental health, and for a long time its been in silence. Yet, when I share my pain and my own personal experience of being touched by mental health through my family, with more then one family member, often many people I speak to can relate to what I share.

Many of us, even if we haven’t experienced it directly ourselves, often know at least one person in our life that struggles with alcohol or drug addictions, depression, anxiety, bipolar, schizophrenia, eating disorders or other avenues connected to these streams.

In my own life, I experience deep peace, fulfillment, silence within and much love—through being rooted in the Light and my Divine Nature, yet this is not the case for all the members of my biological family.

For me in this lifetime, the deepest pain I have experienced is through witnessing those I love so deeply to be struggling so tremendously in darkness. My life may appear peaceful, light and blissful—which it really is—yet it wasn’t always like this in my life.

Growing up as a teenager I witnessed one family member fall into depression, have panic attacks and become addicted to alcohol as an escape for the tremendous pain they felt.

I myself, while in university in Canada experienced having a panic attack during the first year of my studies while I was going through a dark night of the soul initiation in my life. And now, someone in my family is in the hospital in the mental health care for something more serious that is debilitating their life.

I’ve done everything in my capacity to heal, support and bless—and as much as I have the power to transform, uplift, empower, heal, inspire and awaken many on this Earth—it seems that it’s not my jurisdiction to heal my family.

This has been the hardest and most painful test of acceptance, surrender and breaking open. When everything in your being wants to help, and simply can’t.

There is nothing more painful then witnessing your very family being tortured by darkness and tormented in their souls.

There is absolutely nothing more painful then slowly watching someone live with self destructive tendencies. It’s heartbreaking to see those you love suffer. Especially when you are an empath, heart wide open as the Universe, and a very powerful and strong Light worker on this Earth.

I noticed in this last week, that through being forced to simply fall into acceptance of an impossible situation, my heart has been aching, breaking and cracking open even more.

A lot of crying. Deep pain. Pain has been my greatest awakener in this lifetime. There is nothing like burning in the fires of pure raw pain, that stir within the deepest truth and essence of one’s being to come forth and be invoked.

The truth is that we live in a very unhealthy world. When I see people experiencing anxiety, mental illness, and depression I see the deeper root.

I see that many people that suffer with these conditions, are impacted by conditions from their families and trauma. Its almost like we live in a world where the normal state of being human is so deeply infiltrated like a virus with fear, distortions, trauma and numbness—that we can no longer see the invisible elephant in the room—which is trauma.

We live in a heavily traumatized world, where we don’t see the trauma until the symptoms of a collective virus start to be expressed in highly sensitive souls...

And it’s these highly sensitive souls that end up in mental health care and hospitals. They are the symptoms of a highly dysfunctional society and of the collective consciousness.

Everything they experience, is simply exaggerated and accentuated. Some hear negative voices consistently, and most of the collective consciousness of humanity also hears negative voices in their head everyday, and simply think it’s their own mind without being able to differentiate one’s own thinking from the thinking of the collective mind.

My heart goes out to anyone that has ever been touched or affected by mental illness, addictions, and depression. Traditional Western Psychology only touches the tip of the iceberg when it comes to true healing...and the spiritual dimensions of mental illness, addictions and depression. This is why I also did my Master's degree in Transpersonal Psychology, the study of psychology, spirituality and consciousness.

I know the pain very intimately. I know what its like to witness the suffering of family. I know what its like to feel helpless to help.

After a week of being with deep pain, and a widening of my human heart, it would be completely inauthentic of me to post and share something that wasn’t being honest with what is truly present for me right now in this moment.

I hope that by sharing this, and bringing this stigmatized topic into the light, that my voice can inspire others to come out with their pain..and not hide this darkness in the dark anymore.

The reason why I shine, embody and radiate Divine Light—is because I have faced the deepest pain possible of being human, and in me allowing myself to crack open, the Light of God took residence within my being—to serve as an alter of light and filament of Divinity on this Earth to alleviate suffering, liberate souls into the Light and untie souls from the bondage of darkness, through my own liberation into freedom.

I can only uplift and inspire those into the light, because I have travelled the journey of being immersed in pure darkness and hell. Always remember the strongest Lights on this Earth became the powerhouse of Light that they are through facing the deepest darkness and being initiated into the Light.

Suffering drives you deeper, and is a portal to discovering the indestructible Light and glory within. Pain is one of the greatest awakeners. If you are in the thick of it, keep breaking open and know that the light is always calling you forth to remember your True Nature. The journey of being human, is is a quest of remembering our Divinity and the light within amidst our deepest humanity.

With Love and Compassion,

Nicole

Canada Workshop Success

These are some pictures from my 2nd Workshop last night in Canada🇨🇦️

Thank you so much to everyone who attended this special evening. ❤️

Here are some people’s experiences from the event last night:

“Thank you again for a beautiful evening Nicole. For the reminder that darkness is just as important as light. That love is the strongest power of all. That I am love, I am enough, I am beautiful, I am strong, I am worthy. That the best thing we can do during this human experience is stay true to our divine essence; our True Being. Thank you for your words of wisdom, your love and your motivating energy to continue on this beautiful path of evolution and spiritual awakening. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.”

“Thank you Nicole for such a fascinating event. Meeting you was life changing. In so many ways...”

“Thank you, thank you a million for having me tonight. It was so healing for me. I’m very interested in joining you on June 2nd for the Retreat please.I see in you that this is real—I can embody my soul, my heart is on fire because I see this is my natural state and it’s going to be alright. I am safe in my heart. I love you & Thank YOU from the bottom of my heart.”

“Thank you for a very powerful night. It was just what I needed in my life right now.”

"Hello Nicole, first I would like to express my gratitude for last evening’s workshop. It was for me an experience beyond words at this time. Your words of wisdom and the energy of love that you shared with us were for me inspirational...Much love and angel blessings."

“You are magical and your words are ringing around my head like church bells...thanks for such a beautiful evening!”

“What an incredible energy last night! Thank you so much for hosting such an incredible event! I felt a wave of powerful energy come over me, like ripples from an echo wave, that gave me lovely chills,... as you were blessing each woman, activating their third eye. I could hear your prayer to spirit, as you were doing this. I could hear your intention of each woman connecting to her highest self, as priestess warrior, asking our energetic selves to open our third eye and see the path that we are meant to be on, with grace and ease. Your energy feels as powerful as Jesus. One day, you will be regarded as a Saint, or a similar deity. I love you and just wanted to send you gratitiude! ...................You are the only person who I've met, who has a white Aura, with a crown above you, and Angel wings attached to your back. Like Archangel Metatron and Sandalphon, I feel that you are an incarnated Angel. When you were blessing the women, your crown came up, above your head, about four feet up into the air, and it was the most amazing thing I think I've ever seen. I'm very blessed to be able to see Auras; yours is amazing!”

“Wow, what an amazing night! Thank you so much Nicole Hemmer for inspiring me and helping me along the way with your insights. I could sit and listen to you talk all night. I feel more powerful and more feminine then ever.”

“You're a beautiful guiding light…and a real and relatable woman. Thank you. I'm honoured to share your space. Bless you for last night, my eyes are still beaming today. You really were the catalyst that awakened something in me. I am so grateful, and I'm looking forward to expressing this power of divine love and to seeing you once again on June 2nd.”

“Hello, thank you so much for hosting last night. Knowing that you mostly work with women and that you opened up the event to males as well is awesome. Im not sure what you did with that lavender oil but it was amazing, there was a distinct sensation of energy flow at my third eye. Thank you once again for everything.”

“I cannot thank you enough for creating such a beautiful space last night. Sharing and returning to a place of comfort within my own authentic self was liberation, I'm beyond grateful to have a reaffirmed trust in my journey. Thank you for reminding me that I am love & light. For reminding me that in this moment, on this path, my purpose to is help bring light to the darkness, and to always lead with compassion. I'm grateful for your reminder that we are reflections of one another, and to show resistance creates resistance...to show love will create more love. Most grateful for your reaffirmation that we have a role to play in honouring our divine feminine, the divine essence that is so needed in this world. I stepped onto this journey to empower women around me within the last year, and I have been more directed to continue with full force.”

“I absolutely loved your session as it was truly empowering and inspiring. I feel that I have to begin my channeling of my inner femininity that is ruled by my heart. Today you helped me recognize about putting losses into perspective..seeing the higher ground - having these true life experiences deepen our existence in knowing nothing is permanent. Thank you for all that you do. You are an angel and gift from God.”

“What a great Workshop tonight. Thank you Nicole Hemmer for your wisdom and enlightenment. Such a beautiful soul inside and out.”

“Good day! Thank you for sharing so authentically yesterday Nicole. Your act of sharing your story and weaving in the teachings is clearly powerful.”

“Thank you Nicole...it was so wonderful to reconnect with you again too...your light and beauty radiates from you in such a divine way..”

“Hello Nicole! Thank you so much for the beautiful evening. I feel blessed to be in the vibrations of divine love and light. Blessings to you as you journey the world and touch the hearts of so many…”

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And a big appreciation and gratitude to Lisbeth and Edward of Sacred Energetic Pathways Center for inviting me to host these 2 back to back °Sold Out° Workshops at their space. Thank you for making these events possible, and for supporting me in sharing my work with all these beautiful souls here in Canada. Thank you Molly for sharing the crystal bowls with us all...and thank you so much Jonas for all your support in both these nights.

In love, gratitude and appreciation.

My heart is overflowing…

Nicole 💜🙏✨

✨💜 ~ NATURAL BEAUTY, BODY HAIR, AND TRUE FEMININE EMPOWERMENT ~ 💜✨

I received a message from a woman today thanking me for my article I wrote last year on: "Reclaiming Natural Beauty, Body Hair, and Women's Radical Deconditioning".

She said, "Dear Nicole, your article about body hair was very nourishing to me, and I bow in gratefulness for your courage and the fact that you voice these issues..."

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What's very interesting for me to observe and see is that within the whole Goddess/Divine Feminine/Feminine Empowerment movement it's still very rare for me to meet a woman that chooses to be natural, in allowing her hair to simply be on her own body.

The societal programming and conditioning around beauty and femininity being associated with 'hairlessness' is so DEEPLY ingrained into our collective psyche from such a young age. 

We are taught and programmed that to be beautiful, feminine, and attractive that this means having a hairless body. 

The truth is that we live in an adolescent society, that glorifies youth and is very adolescent in itself, as opposed to living in a world filled with initiated adults and elders.

We live in a world where the majority of people are still very much adolescent, and the ripening of a mature civilization rooted in true stewardship and mature adulthood is much less rare, then the norm, at this time on Earth.

A girl is hairless naturally. 
A woman has hair on her body.

I, as a woman, stopped shaving already 6 years ago because my soul was screaming for me to wake up. It didn't feel right to my being. I felt like I was betraying myself, and mutilating my own body just to fit in to this feminine beauty standard, an artificial construct of beauty.

And I can tell you that as a woman that loves to be natural, and fully and wholeheartedly LOVES and EMBRACES every single piece of hair on my own body—there is no greater testament and embodiment of feminine empowerment then when I see a woman that can stand in this world unapologetically being fully her natural, wild, and pure beautiful self in a world that blast's us with shame for being hairy.

If you truly shave because it FEELS joyful, alive, and inspiring for you every time you do this to your body—I honor your deepest truth.

And if you shave, because you can't imagine not shaving, I really encourage you to deeply inquire into the reason you do this ritual of shaving. Does it really feel natural to shave? How does your body feel through this act? If your legs could speak, what would they say? Are you really doing this for yourself, or to fit in and be considered 'normal' in a mainstream world that denigrates female body hair. 

Try going out in the world with full hair on your legs and see what and how you feel in the world. Notice the prevalent feeling of shame you most probably will experience by simply being natural in your own body. 

If we really want to talk about embodied feminine empowerment, and being a free empowered woman on this Earth, you have to liberate yourself from the shackles and chains of deeply enrooted conditionings on what it means to be a woman and reclaim your true power of being exactly what you are in the world, without feeling any impulse to modify, change, or contort your physical appearance for the sake of 'beauty and femininity'.

I honor every woman that has the courage and empowered freedom within herself to be natural, and to fullheartedly love her body exactly as it is. Shout outs to my soul sisters Molly, Ingrid and to those of you that are walking this path of radical authenticity....

In my experience, it's one of the greatest true embodiments of inner freedom and self sovereignty when I see a woman who chooses to stand in the world with love for her whole body, including her body hair, unapologetically. To radiate authentic natural beauty into the world, is a medicine we are starving for.

I choose to shine a new wave of empowered womanhood in the world, by simply embracing and loving my body exactly how it is. I don't need to shave myself to be beautiful. Every woman's body is beautiful exactly how it is, just as mens body with hair is beautiful exactly how it is—and I really wish to one day live in a world where we wake up and see that a woman's body and a man's body is wholly beautiful and perfect exactly as it is. 

In this photo you can see my beautiful hair on my legs, and I love it. I am a woman, and not a girl anymore—and I will not allow society to dictate to me what is beautiful and feminine. 

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Note: If you are interested in reading my full article and discourse I wrote on this topic, you can see my article "Reclaiming Natural Beauty,  Body Hair and Women's Radical Decondioning" on my website under my Blog. ❤️

With love, Nicole 😊

3 REALIZATION'S AND MIRACLES THAT TRANSPIRED HERE IN SINGAPORE IN THESE LAST 3 DAYS 💜

1.) ASK FOR WHAT YOU WANT—STAY OPEN TO RECEIVE. Take care of your needs. Honor whats important to you. Always remember that everything and anything is possible. Never down play whats absolutely essential for you. Take care of your highly sensitive energetic nature. 
Stop compromising.

Our Airbnb room we rented was not what we were expecting. When we got there, it was much smaller, darker and dirtier then the photos we saw. As I sat on the bed, trying to relax and calm my nervous system after arriving in this large city, I felt disgusted being in this room. 

The energetic field was dense, heavy and the best word to describe the space would be 'yucky'. I couldn't even bring myself to lay my head down on this bed. I felt all the energetic residue of hundreds of people who had been sleeping in this room these last months. Also, this room had no window—therefore no light coming in to cleanse and flush out these old energies and thought forms pervading the space.

I knew I had a choice to either persevere and make the most of this room (which is what many of us do often) forcing ourselves to passively accept the situation, < OR > truly take care of myself, honor my sensitive nature, and see what was possible. I felt inspired to write our host expressing what I felt, and asking whether it was possible to change to another room. 

She wrote me back, and said that she would be happy to give us another room - and this other room was downtown and very central (better location), had 2 large Queen beds and 2 large windows with much light! Boom! Instant manifestation and actualization of my heart's desire. 

All through the power of ASKING for what I wanted. In addition, she offered to get us a private driver to drive us to the new location and had her housekeeper accompany us to the new room in the city to make the transition easy and smooth. 

The learning: You don't have to put up with suffering and a less then ideal situation, when you are empowered to ask, know that everything is possible, and that Life loves to take care of all your needs and desires. Ask and Receive. You have nothing to lose from asking, and it's a gateway to open up to the unlimited possibilities awaiting your openness to receive. Know your worthy of it All. In every moment. 🙏🏻
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2.) RADIATE AN OPEN HEART AND SEE HOW PEOPLE WANT TO SHOWER YOU WITH ABUNDANCE, GOODNESS AND LOVE. I was at the shopping mall with Jonas, and I wanted to treat myself and get a scoop of ice cream. I talked to the man behind the counter and asked him what his favorite flavor was, like I always do. He then surprised me and gave me 2 scoops of ice cream for the price of 1, because he wanted to make my day special and do something good he said. 

Not only that, as we sat at the table enjoying my ice cream and the additional second scoop, he came over and gave me a piece of cheesecake for free as a gift! I wish I could say I was astonished by this generous gifting and his kindness to give me so much, yet things like this are very often happening in my life. When Jonas first met me, he couldn't believe how much I experience these miracles of grace, abundance and things just coming to me so naturally and easily without me even asking sometimes for what I want...this is a skill, and feminine embodiment practice that I also share and teach with other women in my programs, workshops and retreats. 

The learning: When you are open, and radiate love, kindness and goodness into the world, this is what you will receive back multiplied. What you transmit and radiate out, is felt by others on many levels of being, and you receive so much from life in every way, because you are OPEN to receive the blessings, abundance and love that Existence wants to shower into your life. How big is your cup? What is your capacity to receive? What is your capacity to give? How open, worthy and deserving are you to receive gifts, opportunities and abundance just through you being who you are? Do you feel worthy of investing in yourself and giving yourself a tremendous gift? It all comes down to our capacity to receive, how open we are energetically, worthiness, and self love. 

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3.) ALLOW YOURSELF TO FEEL WHAT YOU TRULY DESIRE AND ENVISION YOURSELF LIVING THAT REALITY NOW. Last week, while in the jungle in Northern Bali I had the strong desire to go on a jungle swing. This was something that I felt inner excitement for and was aligned with my bliss. I felt this strongly, allowed it, and knew I will have this experience soon. Fast forward 1 week later, and I am in the gigantic city of Singapore and on my first day I discover this beautiful jungle swing and beauty ~ flower ~ paradise right downtown! We don't always know how things will manifest, but they can only manifest when we truly believe and KNOW everything and anything is possible. 

The learning: Take off the filters of contraction, limitation and rationality. Remove all the limited constructs that were imposed on your thinking from childhood. If you want to step into the field of grace and the miraculous, you must rewire your brain for radical and instant manifestations of bliss. The stronger we grow in our frequency of light, love, joy, excitement and bliss - the quicker we manifest this through our embodied alignment of being One with our True Nature. We embody this frequency of light, and we live what we are in the world. 

The Beautiful Jungle Swing Music Video I posted yesterday in Singapore (which apparently didn't show up on FB for many): 😍https://www.facebook.com/nicole.hemmer/videos/10156196128134454/

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Life doesn't have to be a struggle. It doesn't have to be difficult. Things can be easy, light, clear, and symmetrically aligning when we are centered in our being and embodying our inner light. ~ Radical coherency ~ This involves clearing out all the inner entanglements, emotional charges, limiting beliefs, conditionings, and purifying our inner vessel. I've done this myself through deep spiritual integration work, self inquiry and divine light energetic transmissions, that have burned through all the heavier layers that were blocking my divine essence from shining through.

I am excited to go deeper with this topic as well at the 2018 Bali Women of Light Retreat this June. Inspiring and teaching other women how to anchor their light, embody it and then direct and transmit it into their purpose, calling, expression, leadership and self sovereignty. I will be sharing these divine light activations and grace transmissions in our circle with all the other sisters of light, that know they are on this Earth to embody the fullness of their soul and radiate their unleashed presence, beauty, power, purpose and love into the world. 

The ✨Early Bird Special✨for the Retreat is until April 18th, which is ONLY 6 more days from now.

If you are on the fence, and feeling the desire to come to this year's Bali Women of Light Retreat, send me a message and let me know if you've been feeling it present for you...and are on the fence wondering if its something that is really possible for you. 

I know all the inner voices that may come up such as: Can I really do this? Is this too big for me? Can I really afford it? Maybe I don't need it? Maybe it's not the right timing? Maybe...maybe..and the mind goes into all the doubts, fear and excuses to keep you in your comfort zone, as opposed to upleveling your life, upgrading your life and entering into a higher resonance field of light and alignment with your TRUE HEART'S DESIRES. 

How do you know if something is truly meant for you? It's simple, you feel excitement in your heart and a resonance. Your souls always know's the truth; it's just a question whether you are more loyal to your mind and the fears and excuses that arise, < OR > whether you are loyal and anchored in your heart and soul. ❤️

Following your heart's desires and taking aligned inspired action is powerful. It means you are ready for expansion, transformation and truly honoring your seeds of potentiality that lay within your being. It means you make a fierce commitment to never allow your mind and fear to stop you from living from your heart, and following your heart. 

Life wants to give you everything you need. 
Life wants to shower you with all resources.
Life is benevolent, generous and supportive.
Life loves bravery, Life loves courage, Life loves inspired action from the truth of the heart. 
Life loves commitment to what sings within you!
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Life ALWAYS supports you when you follow your heart, trust your inner resonance, and take action from complete trust and faith....doors open where there was only walls, and miracles abound in the presence of inspired action rooted in the truth of the heart. Never allow fear, doubt and scarcity to control you and block you from embodying the presence of your soul, and doing what calls to your soul....

If your in an inner process, and wish to speak, write me...I know how much courage it takes to truly follow your heart and live from it in every moment of our life...along with all the doubts and fears that arise along the way. Especially when we are being called to expand and grow beyond our comfort zone...

Say yes to your heart, and take the leap of faith.
You won't regret it. 

Love, 
✨ Nicole 😇

The True Nature of Light

It’s easy to associate Light with love, radiance, goodness, beauty, feeling good, unity, peace, upliftment and divinity.

Yet, another aspect and powerful expression of the Light is clarity, awareness, presence, consciousness and seeing reality clearly without the filters of inner distortions.

When you embody a lot of light, you will most often have the experience of triggering people.

I know for myself, these last few years I often have triggered people around me very deeply. The deepest pain, wounds, shadow and darkness within comes up to be healed. This is what the light does. The light pushes up the contractions, in order for the expression of life to continue to unfurl within… 

What I wasn’t always prepared for was the backlash of pain that was then projected onto me, and how much you can sometimes be hated, disliked and even attacked when you beam a strong light—which then touches a deep old wound within another. Often this has happened just through my presence and without doing anything. 

Depending on our consciousness, we can either gently be with the pain that comes up within to be transmuted [ OR ] everything within this unconscious contraction will seek to avoid feeling and confronting this emotional charge by deflecting and blaming the person who is bringing the light to the darkness. 

~ Darkness is only what is not seen and illuminated ~

This is not a gloriously easy and beautiful “light” aspect of being light, and radiating strong light. 

I think it’s been one of my greatest challenges on my path, how to be fully what I am without experiencing fear of triggering those around me, after having experiences where I was strongly projected onto and even rejected. Often by those who were closest to me at the time. 

My being is naturally a harmonizer, and I dwell in love, peace and unity—yet these rather harsh and shaking experiences with people have always been unsettling for me. 

Now I am at a point in my journey where I am seeing many things very deeply within people, and I notice the ways I sometimes hold back sharing what I see out of a fear of experiencing a conflict. My learning and realization today is that even in conflicts and situations of tension, love is always present. 

The light won’t always feel good. The light won’t always be uplifting, and peaceful. The light won’t always feel like what we call “love”. 

The light can be strong, clear and powerfully liberating—unbinding the hidden chains of distortions and subconscious imprints circulating within, often from childhood.

The light is a flashlight that beams it’s penetrated awareness and clarity into the unseen aspects within, in order to catalyze transformation, healing and a new circuity of intelligence that is able to flow through.

This is for me, a deeper essential aspect of the light. 

The light can hurt, and burn—it can feel like dying. I know because I have been there. 

It’s a dying to the original contraction and pain, the small self, the aspect within that has been fragmented and cut off….and sometimes we experience the medicine of the light as complete pain, when wholeness is being reinstated within. 

It doesn’t always feel good. It’s a process of alchemy and bringing the searing hot irons together again in order to dissolve the original energetic and emotional imprint that was first created. It's a purification through fire. 

Being on the path of transformative spirituality, isn’t an easy path—but it’s direct, true, and purifying. 

Much of what we see in the mainstream world of spirituality today is materialistic spirituality. 

Materialistic spirituality is rooted in “feeling good”, personal empowerment and building up the sense of self. Which is also very much needed in our world, and serves a purpose. 

Transformative spirituality is one of burning the small self, so that only the light of God remains. Rooted in the Essential. 

It’s a path of burning. Burning again, and then more.
It’s definitely not for everyone.

I grew up being introduced to materialistic spirituality, and it wasn’t until the past 5 years that I entered the radical portal of transformative spirituality. This is the path I am on, and it’s what I share with the women I work with in my programs, workshops, classes and retreats. 

In my experience, it’s a deepening into what is true, pure, and eternal. A constant engagement of self inquiry and self examination.  

I felt inspired to write about this today, as I post another picture of me bathed in the light….to bring to light another dimension of the light that isn’t always talked about. 🙂

~ This is an unedited photo from today after being under a very holy and sacred waterfall. After the waterfall, an Indonesian boy took this picture of me on his phone while I was sitting on the rock integrating the light streaming in….and he sent it to me. I am right now back in the wild jungle…very deep jungle. A place that is very, very alive and is awakening many things within me. Going to be offline for a bit, in order to go ONLINE here more fully. Creating the 2018 ✨BALI WOMEN OF LIGHT RETREAT✨ and writing the introduction for my book that will be published and released this year. ~ ❤️

✨ ▍NATURE, ~ M O N E Y ~, LIGHT AND SOUL ▍✨

Many people struggle with money. 
Many people see money as materialistic, and not spiritual.
Many people often experience a lack of money.
Many people don’t like money.

One of the greatest dichotomies within the spiritual arena of ‘conscious people’, is that money is somehow not needed when you are spiritual—or that asking for money is somehow not spiritual. The greatest seed of separation that I see within this collective field of conscious and beautiful beings is the perceived separation of matter and spirit. 

Spirit is crystalized into matter. 
Spirit permeates everything and all things.
Spirit is manifest into this physical world for our creative experience of living.

There is nothing spiritual about being poor and living a life of financial struggle and hardship. This should never be glorified.
There is also nothing spiritual about being rich and living life in complete abundance.

What is spiritual? YOU. AS. A. BEING.

And whatever you essential ARE, is what you will be with money. Whether your poor or rich; neither is spiritual.

A great bypass for many, is thinking that because you are spiritual that you need to stay away from money and the monetary system as if money is the root of problems. Money is often associated with greed, corruption and destruction.
For some people on this Earth, this has been their experience with money.

And for other people on this Earth, money is a force for good, giving, sharing, creating, love and service.

🌀It is through money that we build and create transformations in the world.
🌀It is through money that we are able to live the fullest expression of our being.
🌀It is through money that we live in full resonance and alignment with our innermost being.
🌀Is is through money that we able to take authorship of our lives masterfully and create powerfully.

I feel this massive silent distortion existing within the collective field—and I am tired of it.

I am tired of hearing from beautiful souls, most often women, these words—“I can’t afford it” and “I don’t have enough money”.

In all the work I have done with hundreds of women around the world these last years, the number one thing that holds women back from fully living from their heart, aligning with their soul and taking inspired action is money. I see it again, and again how so many people block Divine Grace, Miracles and Divine Support through contracting and falling into fear around money. 

At first this brought sadness to my heart, to see how so many sisters and women do not live from their heart fully, because of the fear and contractions around money. After feeling this sadness, I then started to feel a healthy anger around this topic. An anger that arises in my soul, that propels me to bring light, consciousness, healing and love to this topic that addresses so many. 

If you struggle with money, it’s never about money—and only what energetic, emotional or psychological blockage is existing within your framework that makes you perceive your experience of money in a contracted way, and separates you from the infinite vastness of Life.

MONEY, LIFE, LIGHT AND SOUL ARE INTRICATELY INTERWOVEN. 

In my experience of life, money is freedom—the freedom to create, have, be, do, become and express the fullest potential of my soul on this Earth.

Money is sacred.
Money is beautiful.
Money is love.
Money is energy.
Money is an instrument. 
Money is a relationship with Life itself.
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If you struggle with money, you are struggling with Life.
When you love money, you embrace Life.
When you embrace life fully in totality, your life becomes reconnected to the Divine Source of All That Is. 
You are then hooked up to the Infinite supply and flow of ENERGY/MONEY/LIGHT/LOVE—all one and the same expression, in different flavors. 

We are all in intimate communion with money—we all have an intimate relationship with money.

My vision is to live in a world where I see brilliant heart and soul centered beings, thriving in all ways—creating and living their hearts deepest vision and dreams with the actual manifestation that comes with stewarding money and channeling it into projects and visions of love, beauty, innovation and creativity. 

I want to live in a world where everyone has healed their relationship with ‘money’ or more specifically healed their relationship with Life/God/Source, and knows how supported they are from the infinite Creator of Life. 

I want to see MORE wealthy, rich, heart and soul aligned beings that are Millionaires and Billionaires in every respect of life—including financially. 

A world where sufficiency has overcome lack and scarcity. 
A new revolution is needed in our relationship with money. 

And money is calling to us all, to step up and move past all our woundings, beliefs and lack—past our poverty and scarcity consciousness in order to meet money as the sacred and loving current she is. A beautiful friend that wishes to have a nourishing and healthy relationship with us, in order to benefit, uplift and serve the world. 🙏

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This piece of writing is an excerpt from my Book that will be published this year in the fall. It’s a book of Revelations, Soul Truths and Divine Reminders for a renaissance of a new era. 

If you resonate with my writings, and would like to be notified by email when my book is released, you have the possibility to subscribe on my website on the home page. 

Also below in the comments, I have shared another article I wrote on this topic from last year "Spirituality and Money ~ One Love" that is featured on my website if you would like to go deeper into this topic. 🙂

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Love,
Nicole

⌘ ~ ✨ A NEW FEMININE ARCHETYPE OF THE FUTURE ✨ ~ ⌘

Recently I see much expression being given within the Divine Feminine Rising movement that is always very much focused on sexuality and sensuality. I see much around yoni eggs, pleasure, sexuality, tantric awakening and sacred moon time—and a lot of this feels rather empty to me. 

Yet within this cohesive field, I feel a powerful voice of feminine consciousness is missing. Something is absent.  Something that is much deeper then sensual pleasure and connecting to womb wisdom.

I feel that awakening our sexuality, and remembering the sacred temple arts is important; yet, is that it? I honor the sanctity of our sexuality and the beauty of all expressions, yet recently there is a stirring within my being of something that is inclusive of all these fractals, and yet is beyond all of this...

Even much of what I have seen and read centered around Mary Magdalene as a Priestess is mainly always connected to sexuality...is this really the full true expression of what her being was on this Earth—and what she holds and represents as a key and portal for women on this planet to awaken into their True Nature and embodied Divinity?

The more I see the main threads and weavings of this Priestess/Goddess/Feminine Rising movement, the less I actually resonate with it...because something new wants to be birthed now. Evolution is calling.

I miss a very awake, spiritually transformative ignited expression of contemporary feminine spirituality. 

True illumination, substance, depth and grounded embodiment that is rooted in awakened consciousness—not just the flavor of Shakti—but the integration of the pristine all inclusive consciousness and field of awareness that we are. 

The true union within us women of our Divine Feminine flame of radiance, light and embodied love—along with our fully awakened Divine Masculine expression of consciousness, clarity, and penetrating awareness. 

What I see in this collective movement, is a strong flavor of only a minuscule expression of the unbounded vastness and potential of what women are capable of embodying, transmitting and living.

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There is a stirring within my soul of a remembrance of another dimension untapped. I feel a future archetype taking root within women. An archetype that has not existed yet in this timeline, it's an archetype from the future that wishes to be downloaded now into the collective consciousness. 

~ ⚜️THE NEW EARTH WOMAN ⚜️~

This blueprint exists from the future, and is now accessible to women on this Earth at this time. There are many archetypes existing: maiden, mother, crone, priestess, wild woman, witch...yet I feel there is a new one that wishes to be impregnated within the collective psyche.

And I feel this future archetype living within me, and I see it also in many sisters that I am connected with—and it speaks of a new, fresh, and futuristic outlay for women of the future....FROM THE FUTURE FOR THE FUTURE. 

It's time that a fresh and newly awakened embodiment of the feminine is created on this Earth. Why do we go back to old and already usable archetypes and models, when in the freshness of creativity, innovation and expansion something new wishes to be realized, invoked, created, birthed and downloaded through us all...

The future requires very different energies, expression and embodiment then the times of the past. Which is why a new and fresh embodiment is required if we are to move beyond what we have already lived and embodied for so many incarnations on this Earth.

The future is living within you.
The future is awake within you.
Listen closely. 

Can you feel this futuristic feminine embodiment and archetype of the future...

It's not called a priestess. It's not called a goddess.

It's something new. It's something different that has not existed yet. It doesn't have a title, although perhaps in the future it will one day...for now it's an awake frequency of a new flame of light and codings that are part of the metamorphosis of the human species—supporting women to step into this new awakened archetype that has never existed before on this planet to date. 

It comes from the future, and is here now to create the future for an updated civilization to flourish. In order for this future to be created, the energy of this futuristic woman must be downloaded within us—and lived now in order to create the changes that are needed on this earth now at this precipice in humanity's evolution.

For now, it's a living breathing flame of divine expression that burns in the hearts of those that feel strongly connected to the future. Future leaders of the New Earth. 

Women who will rise and lead from sovereignty, feminine consciousness and grounded spiritual integration. Self Mastery—an integrated ego rooted in divine expression.

Much, much more then just one's sexual pleasure, sensual awakening and womb connection...it's an awakening of powerful women leaders who will be shaking the world through their full presence, undiluted power, illuminated awareness, and wakefulness.

Nicole 💜🙏