It’s easy to associate Light with love, radiance, goodness, beauty, feeling good, unity, peace, upliftment and divinity.
Yet, another aspect and powerful expression of the Light is clarity, awareness, presence, consciousness and seeing reality clearly without the filters of inner distortions.
When you embody a lot of light, you will most often have the experience of triggering people.
I know for myself, these last few years I often have triggered people around me very deeply. The deepest pain, wounds, shadow and darkness within comes up to be healed. This is what the light does. The light pushes up the contractions, in order for the expression of life to continue to unfurl within…
What I wasn’t always prepared for was the backlash of pain that was then projected onto me, and how much you can sometimes be hated, disliked and even attacked when you beam a strong light—which then touches a deep old wound within another. Often this has happened just through my presence and without doing anything.
Depending on our consciousness, we can either gently be with the pain that comes up within to be transmuted [ OR ] everything within this unconscious contraction will seek to avoid feeling and confronting this emotional charge by deflecting and blaming the person who is bringing the light to the darkness.
~ Darkness is only what is not seen and illuminated ~
This is not a gloriously easy and beautiful “light” aspect of being light, and radiating strong light.
I think it’s been one of my greatest challenges on my path, how to be fully what I am without experiencing fear of triggering those around me, after having experiences where I was strongly projected onto and even rejected. Often by those who were closest to me at the time.
My being is naturally a harmonizer, and I dwell in love, peace and unity—yet these rather harsh and shaking experiences with people have always been unsettling for me.
Now I am at a point in my journey where I am seeing many things very deeply within people, and I notice the ways I sometimes hold back sharing what I see out of a fear of experiencing a conflict. My learning and realization today is that even in conflicts and situations of tension, love is always present.
The light won’t always feel good. The light won’t always be uplifting, and peaceful. The light won’t always feel like what we call “love”.
The light can be strong, clear and powerfully liberating—unbinding the hidden chains of distortions and subconscious imprints circulating within, often from childhood.
The light is a flashlight that beams it’s penetrated awareness and clarity into the unseen aspects within, in order to catalyze transformation, healing and a new circuity of intelligence that is able to flow through.
This is for me, a deeper essential aspect of the light.
The light can hurt, and burn—it can feel like dying. I know because I have been there.
It’s a dying to the original contraction and pain, the small self, the aspect within that has been fragmented and cut off….and sometimes we experience the medicine of the light as complete pain, when wholeness is being reinstated within.
It doesn’t always feel good. It’s a process of alchemy and bringing the searing hot irons together again in order to dissolve the original energetic and emotional imprint that was first created. It's a purification through fire.
Being on the path of transformative spirituality, isn’t an easy path—but it’s direct, true, and purifying.
Much of what we see in the mainstream world of spirituality today is materialistic spirituality.
Materialistic spirituality is rooted in “feeling good”, personal empowerment and building up the sense of self. Which is also very much needed in our world, and serves a purpose.
Transformative spirituality is one of burning the small self, so that only the light of God remains. Rooted in the Essential.
It’s a path of burning. Burning again, and then more.
It’s definitely not for everyone.
I grew up being introduced to materialistic spirituality, and it wasn’t until the past 5 years that I entered the radical portal of transformative spirituality. This is the path I am on, and it’s what I share with the women I work with in my programs, workshops, classes and retreats.
In my experience, it’s a deepening into what is true, pure, and eternal. A constant engagement of self inquiry and self examination.
I felt inspired to write about this today, as I post another picture of me bathed in the light….to bring to light another dimension of the light that isn’t always talked about. 🙂
~ This is an unedited photo from today after being under a very holy and sacred waterfall. After the waterfall, an Indonesian boy took this picture of me on his phone while I was sitting on the rock integrating the light streaming in….and he sent it to me. I am right now back in the wild jungle…very deep jungle. A place that is very, very alive and is awakening many things within me. Going to be offline for a bit, in order to go ONLINE here more fully. Creating the 2018 ✨BALI WOMEN OF LIGHT RETREAT✨ and writing the introduction for my book that will be published and released this year. ~ ❤️